So I did something very intuitive
Yesterday I thought of these 10 spots in my house where I feel are liminal places for me
and then I kind of tried to indicate the right spot where I find myself in relation to those places
and I am the red spot
and at the end I just connected the dots, but it was something that came up a little bit freely
I was not meant to be making such a map, but at the end something came out which is nice
but anyways, so I am going to tell you which they are
so this one is anthropology class I have every Friday and it’s a liminal place to me because it is the most interesting class where I feel the most present, almost like we are together, because it is very very intense and interesting and we discuss a lot, but actually I am not there and sometimes it feel a bit weird and I really wish it could be in presence and so I place myself outside of there
then this is face masks and hanging, also this idea of a little bit hanging situation of situation of actually being able to do things, but actually not fully, so being able to see some people, but not others, and yesterday I had a meeting with a person I have a project with and usually you kind of sit at some cafe because we never saw each other, we didn’t know each other at all, it was the first time we saw each other, usually you want to sit at some cafe in winter and talk in front of a coffee in a warm spot and we couldn’t do it, because everything is closed and lalala, so we had to go out and take a walk and we spent like 2 hours almost walking, talking about ourselves, about the project, about what we are gonna do, but we had to walk also fast, because it was cold outside, so we had to warm up, but we were also wearing these masks, you know, and these masks were getting very very wet inside because of all the steam while talking and with the cold outside and with the warm inside it was really really crazy. it has been really nice at the end, but I felt a bit weird in this situation which is really strange. also a little bit hanging there
and this is a message, the last message I sent to this really really really good friend of mine back in the netherlands and we constantly send each other these kind of messages and we never really manage to call and I feel myself if I should just leave it or actually just call or, you know these kind of situations, it’s actually really weird so it’s also a bit liminal and I place myself there, where I am supposed to write a message or call
and this is my lower back pain that I have almost everyday now because I can’t manage to go to swim in a swimming pool, which is the thing that releases all the time, most of the time my back pain. and this pain is also not really helping me doing things. sometimes I wake up and it’s really strong and it’s like close to a nerve so when you have pain to your nerves most of the times it takes, your head also aches and all kinds of other things aches, so you don’t really, you are not really able to think lucid and it’s really, it’s something that places me in a bit in a strange place.
and then this is just the threshold between my bedroom and the rest of the house. just very physical place representing liminality
and the clothes hanging to dry in the bathroom, just very physical feeling, like it’s a metaphor a little bit for me at the moment. Not dry yet, not really wet anymore, but still hanging there waiting
and then the chair where I sit to do all the meetings, video call meetings and classes, and spending a lot of hours seated in this chair
and then this is very little slice of blue I see from the kitchen this house, where I see the Alps so beautiful, sometimes when the sun is shining and it really is something I look at every day very often that makes me feel like at home a lot, because I grew up with this view, but at the same time that I have been on the other sides of these Alps a lot, so I don’t know, it’s like a place for me, where I flew to the Netherlands and back in the past years it was just this spot where I felt ok now Alps are here, I am almost home, or now Alps I’m here, so I am really getting away from liminal place
And then finally this is millimetre paper I am supposed to start some drawings for class that I really don’t feel concentrated with and that are being there for such a ling time and that I have to start at a certain point, but I just don’t, it’s really weird
and then my cat sending me away every time when I try to cuddle him and it’s really weird, it really feels sometimes a bit strange, because, I have this cat which is not really cuddly, but when you are here, he knows that he can go to cuddle you, he can come cuddling you because he knows that you are one of these people who are always in the house, for example, my mom, who is mostly in this house, he doesn’t have problem to go and be cuddled by her or anything, but with me and my brothers that are sometimes here, sometimes not here, he just has this a bit, his a bit tough all the time. sometimes he comes, sometimes he goes away and sends me away so it’s a little bit strange relationship I have that I feel in between.

so I made this map and I felt like I wanted to exploit it a little bit out of myself and find again shape for it or something. This just came out very abstractly

did you notice, that the line which you drew is kind of a shape of a heart
yeah, like if I would connect this part, or what what do you mean?
like you know, like this
oh yeah like this! true, haha. No, I didn’t notice, yeah, true. That’s nice, actually.